Sometime in mid August 2012.
Me: Dude, I am coming to India in September. I will
reach Pune on early morning of 23rd. will be in Pune until 6th
Oct. Lets meet for a while...
Friend: Kya baat hain! Sure.. we will meet.. after
how many years will you be coming to India?
Me: Well, for the first time after 33 months..
Friend: long time.. Excited to come to India?
Me: Well, not if I look at the time of travel!
But of course, yes.. Will meet my parents, be at home.. plus homemade food..
Ganpati.. Have been missing Ganpati since last 2 years. fun of visarjan..Meeting
good old friends.. Hangout at Boat Club.. lot of things.. I have already sent
emails to friends.. asking them to plan a meet up on particular dates..
And, the conversation continues with each other
discussing on how ‘satisfied’ one is with his achievements until one’s quarter
life (crisis!?)
17th September 2012:
Time: 1 am EDT.
I get a text from L. I read with
sleepy eyes. L talks of how excited I must be as I would be going to India
after quite a long time. I say to myself, ‘Yes, I am.’ But, I decide to reply
when I wake up.
Around 2:00 am EDT: I get a call from my brother. He
informs me with a shaky voice, ‘’Dad is suddenly unwell. We are taking him to
hospital. I have called M and N and they will be reaching shortly’’. I wake up
in a shock. I don’t know what to do. Gathering myself, I decide to follow my
usual morning practice, open up my palms, joining them and concentrating on the
3 thick so-called heart, brain and life lines on my palms, I recite the morning
hymn taught to me by my parents, seeking health, wealth and wisdom from the
different forms of Almighty. Somewhere, I hope, let this morning prayer give as
much health as possible to my father. He is more in need of it than me. I call
another friend and inform him of the emergency. I get an update from M that my
family is in ambulance. I just hope and pray for things to get better and come
under control. What else can I do sitting 9000 miles away? I decide to iron my
office wear because irrespective of the outcome of emergency back home in
India, I have to report to work to take care of an important assignment due
that day. I start preparing coffee for myself and reply to my friend who had
texted, telling ‘Excited? I don’t know. Dad is being hospitalized.’ I taste the lukewarm coffee. It is bitter
than usual. ‘Should I be taking this as an omen’, I tend to think. Ignoring the
temporary bitterness of the coffee, I call M to get an update. Dad is in ER. I
try to recreate scenarios in my mind of how my mom, brother and friend would
have managed to face this emergency and get shivers which I cannot forget even
today. In few minutes, my brother calls me up informing me of father’s demise. It
must be 2:30am in Detroit. It is dark outside. A life, very dear to me, has
come to an end!
How
topsy-turvy things can become in a matter of 90 minutes! A text from a friend
and I do feel excited in the middle of sleep about the upcoming India trip. An
hour later, a disturbing phone call upsets me. Half an hour after the phone
call, the previous excitement turns into an everlasting bereavement. Who could
have possibly thought I would be coming to India under these circumstances? My immediate
family, or my friends to whom I had emailed about a small get together, or my
closest friends for whom I had bought gifts and had hoped to see their
excitement when I would hand over their gifts to them, or the deceased who
until a day before the aforementioned fateful event had said, ’I will be seeing
my Mayur in a week’. Who? None. I had never imagined in my wildest dreams that
the first time I will be going to India from US, it will be to perform final
rites of my beloved dad, that too, a week before my scheduled trip. But, one
omnipotent entity knew everything and had different plans for me.
It exists, but you can’t see it. It keeps slipping
out of your hands. It never stops and makes you chase it for you to wisely use
it. We think we are using it but, in a way, we waste it more than we use it. And,
we waste it on inconsequential things in our life. Material possessions, which
in the end, do not make a slightest difference to what you had when you were
born. Still, we chase them for an ephemeral joy. Of course, I am talking about
‘TIME’.
We all may have heard about importance of time
management. In school, we may have solved riddles like what has 3 hands but no
face and proudly answered ‘A clock!’ We may have also read those lines which
talk about importance of 1 ms, 1 sec, 1 min and so on. We may have heard Billie
Joe Armstrong strum ‘Time grabs you by the wrist directs you where to go’and
Linkin Park explain ‘The clock ticks life away’ in ‘In the End’. We may have
heard about Steve Jobs stressing on our time being limited and not waste it. I
am unsure how many of these mentioned before and many alike actually explain
how TIME could be. I believe the experiences which come with Vedic quote: ‘कालाय
तस्मै नमः’, which means, ‘Salutations to that great entity
called TIME’ might very well be the quote explaining the power of it.
What is the best thing that happens to you? What is the
worst thing that happens to you? Well, they are not things or events. I have started
to believe it is the TIME that happens to you. Good or bad, it is all in the
hands of TIME to show you it’s either side. What is the best way to heal a
wound? Someone has wisely said that time heals everything. Do you believe that
God exists? Till date, I used to believe in the existence of God. But, while
flying back from India, I was thinking about the turn of events in my life and
it dawned upon me, couldn’t it be possible for TIME, which has been in existence
since times immemorial, to manifest itself into different forms which people
today worship as god? Or, just like an organizational hierarchy, could it not be
possible for TIME to be the ultimate boss? Could not luck, fate, destiny be the
marionettes controlled by TIME? Well, only TIME knows it. And, only TIME can
tell it.
There are few things which science cannot explain. I
know this sounds a cliché. But, could it be related to the unexplored mystery
of TIME? On 16th September, I read the above Vedic quote (कालाय
तस्मै नमः) in a newspaper. I immediately copy pasted the quote
as my GTalk status message. I still do not know what exactly made me do that. And,
the unfortunate event I faced on 17th. I just cannot call it as a
coincidence. Though it does not completely justify the existence of a greater
power, it certainly makes it difficult to deny it.
Someone has rightly said, TIME, is the greatest
teacher, unfortunately, it kills all its pupils.
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